Pieces

 

When I pushed back she killed me with love

Ameliorated with pieces of her

When I needed a shoulder to cry on

She offered little pieces of her

 

When life had chipped away the edge

She built me back with little pieces of her

When I fell away she brought me back

She gave too many pieces of her

 

I've taken all her energy

She gave too much to me

These idiosyncrasies go both ways

For her and me

 

She's true blue the colour of constancy

I'll build her up with pieces of me

She's true blue unconsciously

I'll build her up with pieces of me

I'll build her up with pieces of me

 

I have blamed her when I should have blamed myself

She knows I'm lost in my own way

She offers me resilient heart

But she gave too many pieces away

 

When I take her energy

When she gives too much to me

Our idiosyncrasies go both ways

For her and me

 

She's true blue the colour of constancy 

I'll build her up with pieces of me 

She's true blue unconsciously 

I'll build her up with pieces of me 

I'll build her up with pieces of me

 

Blue illumination is our reality

When the signs of life had all but gone from me

Blue illumination in actuality

When the signs of life had all but gone from me

 

When I take her energy 

When she gives too much to me 

Our idiosyncrasies go both ways 

For her and me 

 

She's true blue the colour of constancy  

I'll build her up with pieces of me  

She's true blue unconsciously  

I'll build her up with pieces of me  

I'll build her up with pieces of me

 

Rising Up

 

Feel the sun breaking through again

I've struggled through the dark and stormy rain

Shards of light now touch the sky

The storm was inside my brain

 

I feel alive, I feel brave

I feel my life is gonna change

I feel love and I feel safe

I'm rising up again

 

Distanced from dark day smiles

I've fought to reach the happy place

Life was in another's hands

Restricting my breathing space

 

I feel alive, I feel brave 

I feel my life is gonna change 

I feel love and I feel safe 

I'm rising up again

 

Strings had passed to a puppeteer

I'd lost of the control

Helpless to make any plans

The pressure takes its toll

 

I feel alive, I feel brave  

I feel my life is gonna change  

I feel love and I feel safe  

I'm rising up again

 

Sleeping Dogs

Wait, I hear the noise, I disappear, I'm disappointed

Pushed it too hard, a break in the void

Stop, it wasn't my choice to reappear, remaining disjointed

Or living in fear for holding a torch

 

Living was easy, when I wrote those words to you 

Giving was easy, but I held something back from you 

Forced intervention held me up against my will

 

Fate followed your heart, I have been bound so don't let me suffer

Moving to live, the journeys begun

Sail unchartered water, spinning the wheel, search validation

I've lost my chill scaring myself

 

Living was easy, when I wrote those words to you  

Giving was easy, but I held something back from you  

Forced intervention held me up against my will

 

Fighting the demons left inside

You walk alone without your pride

Stifle the cry, the beauty has died

Spiralling lies, let sleeping dogs lie

 

I'll fall and take the casket

Still waiting for the answer

To the question of this broken heart

Take my hand you can mask it

It helps to shroud the answer

To the question of this broken heart

 

Stifle the cry, the beauty has died 

Spiralling lies, let sleeping dogs lie

 

Mechanism

Love the dark, it hides all my sins 

selfish disease

Makes me act like no-one really matters to me

 

This mechanism is fixing me

This mechanism is breaking me

 

Walked that road, I've become the cliche

wasted years

Floating round, inside of my dream world all alone

 

Mechanism helping me 

Mechanism damaged me

 

I caved in so quick, flavour of release

I know that I'm sick, searching for some peace

 

Push the things inside of my head to one one side

Fight or flight, lead me to that plane, mile high

 

Mechanism comfort me

Mechanism hurting me

 

Bring me up and drags you down I'm neglectful of your feelings

The hardest thing to see is poison in the thoughts that I'm concealing

Fight me, bite me I'll return, keep me coming back to burn

No matter how many times it makes me sick I'll never learn

 

I caved in so quick, flavour of release 

I know that I'm sick, searching for some peace

 

Creation Room

 

Let's pretend for a moment

Let's pretend for a moment

There is a place where anything can happen

A dreamatorium if you will

 

Let's pretend for a moment 

Let's pretend for a moment

There is a place where everything is possible

A hallucination if you will

Where songs are sung and memories are made

lost in the illusion if you will

 

Welcome into my imaginarium

Follow me inside my creation room

A world that knows no bounds in fantasy

 

Let's pretend for a moment

Set your mind alight for a moment

From Here we've joined other searching souls

A place to escape to at your will

Tears have been shed for good times and for bad

A witness to your thoughts if you will

 

Welcome into my imaginarium

Join with me inside my creation room

A world that knows no bounds in fantasy

Together we can dream we're falling

Up instead of down we're falling

 

Top hats and tails and floating scarves

Dinosaurs are driving cars

Rainbows dripping down the canvas

Screams and giggles and manic laughter

 

Jewels and glitter and sprinkled magic

Puppets trip the light fantastic

Horses leap from carousels

Salutations from my caravel

 

Welcome into my imaginarium 

Lose yourself inside my creation room 

A world that knows no bounds in fantasy 

Together we can dream we're falling 

Up instead of down we're falling

 

Addiction With Decorum

 

We're both addicted in our own way

You're perched on my shoulder

Like my guardian angel

Watching as i get older

All change with the moon and the tides

Share my seat enjoy the ride

 

Dreams of life in the city

Taking scenes that cause effect

Not the level that's completed

Resides what you do next

All those dreams and aspirations

What you give is what you get

 

I don't know how to stop

The hole is deeper than the cause

You've become my sanctuary

And I've become yours

You stop me opening the door

And I won't ever let you fall

 

Shying from the public secret

Addiction with decorum

Talks have only scratched the surface

Using only words as weapons

The clown and the beauty queen

Giving smiles on the TV screen

 

Watching you is an honour

Never taken for granted 

Curls fall hips swaying

Moving like its after hours

Holding on to dignity

Open soul for the world to see

 

I don't know how to stop 

The hole is deeper than the cause 

You've become my sanctuary 

And I've become yours 

You stop me opening the door 

And I won't ever let you fall

 

If there was something I could do I would do it

No empty gestures

Just want to help you through it

Share the burden make it better

I see the pain and anger in your eyes

Repercussions are there for life

 

I don't know how to stop  

The hole is deeper than the cause  

You've become my sanctuary  

And I've become yours  

You stop me opening the door  

And I won't ever let you fall

 

 

Vulnerable

I don't want to fight today

Mind's replaying yesterday

Need to rehibilitate

I've become insensitive

 

I know you're trying to support now

I just want to let it go

Making me tense so leave it alone

I'm becoming desolate

 

Senses crushed and conquered

Agrophobic threat

Rejuvenate at night but

Mornings pure regret

 

I'm becoming insular

I've become undone

I'm becoming vulnerable

I've become that one

 

Don't intend to just get through the next day

Trying to roll with the punches but I'm getting hurt

I had all the troubles in the world to tell you

Now I'm here I can't remember one

 

Cushioned and protected

Blessed is the womb

Pain and fear and happiness

Sweeping through these rooms

 

I know you're trying to oblige now

I just want to leave it all

It's making it worse and I want to escape 

Trapped within these walls

 

I'm becoming insular 

I've become undone 

I'm becoming vulnerable 

I've become that one 

 

I don't want to just get through the next day 

I want to roll with the punches but I'm getting hurt 

I had all the troubles in the world to tell you 

Now I'm here I can't remember one

 

I'm becoming insular  

I've become undone  

I'm becoming vulnerable  

I've become that one